Waiting on Gods Timing!!!

Wow its been a min since I've blogged, not for any reason in particular really it boiled down to laziness :( lol! But in all honesty there wasn't anything on my heart really worth blogging about, until tonight! After witnessing some altercations in relationships between my fam and friends I felt inspired to blog about dating relationships and GODs timing! I'm 24 and I've never been in a relationship! Never been in love or had sex..... I know, I know theres probably crickets in the background LOL! I grew up in a family where I saw divorce, so naturally I strayed away from "real relationships" out of fear of being hurt or just genuinely not interested enough in anyone to give my heart body and EVERYTHING too them! It wasn't until I got a little older and my "holding out" on relationships stopped being for my own personal preference but for Jesus :)!!! I grew closer to him so I want to follow his way and make him happy so I'm not going to date until its time for marriage and I'm also not having sex (fooling around included) until after marriage! In this day and time some would call it crazy, or prudish or down right dumb! But I answer to God and no one else! In the spring of 2009 I met a young man actually he was my pastors eldest son! The min I saw him I was a gonner. It was at a church anniversary function I remember it like it was yesterday I was sitting in my seat and he walked in with his blue pin-stripe suit on lol I turned around and saw him and immediately turned back around! My heart was jumping around "I had found The One"!haha He was tall, dark and handsome LITERALLY!! He is a football player so he is in great physical shape as well! as the years went by I became more and more infatuated with this guy, I mean he was everything I thought I desired in a man and more!  Loves God his family, smart, articulate, funny, VERY humble and sweet! I couldn't think of a better man, or so I thought, it was totally lust. For him to be an athlete it was even more shocking because they are usually the complete polar opposite of him!   I found myself starting to like him soo much but I wasn't sure how he felt he was nice too me and when he visited his fathers church we talked and laughed and sometimes flirted and joked, but I still couldn't tell if he liked me or not! He's also close to his parents who are a big influence in his life, as my mother and stepfather are in mine. I used to fill that his family wouldn't except me I am of a different race than he is and I haven't finished my degree yet. And it was brought to my attention by my mother and some other elders that I shouldn't put more time and energy into thinking about him as I was GOD, and giving more time and energy to him as I was GOD! Also not to worry if his family liked me or not all that mattered was how he felt. She also said  that What GOD had for me was for me!! Eventually he graduated college and moved to another state for his career and a year after that I went back to my home church in garland.  So I decided to let it go and live my life for CHRIST and just wait on the Lords perfect timing! One of the desires of my heart is to be married to a Godly young man that loves God more than me and life itself one that pursues me and that I don't have to adopt the worlds ways of dating and run him down. And if I could pick the guy for that desire it would def  be him or someone like him:) I want what the scripture says, for him to find me, court me and marry me :) {Proverbs 18:22} right now I'm spending my time working in the church, finishing school and working. I still think about him, and see him on tv sometimes lol. I even still like him but I want it to be from God and too know that he is pleased with my relationship and that its not just me. I also want the guy to like me on his own and not because I forced him or pushed him or tricked him into liking me. That he chose me to be his wife because he wanted me, that way he would appreciate me. But right now I'm on Gods PERFECT timing all I can do is sit be patient and rest in GOD!And know that it doesn't matter how far away my future husband is when its Gods appointed time he will bring us together in the most unique and beautiful way that only he can <3 Ecclesiastes 3:1

God Loves you soo much, trust in his PERFECT timing and will for your life!! :-)